Can you imagine what it is like to be hyper vigilant of everything and everyone, every day of your life?
Something as simple as going into the store to buy a gallon of milk, but you can’t concentrate on what you went in there for, because as soon as you walk into the door, you start to take inventory of other people. Every thing from the way they communicate to someone to how they are dressed, how they are holding themselves, the expression on their face.
All of sudden you find yourself in a panic, your heart is racing. You start sweating, because something doesn’t seem right; or everything is right, but your inner self tells you that something is off. All you want to do is get out of there, the quickest way possible.
PTSD is a part of my life every day.
It does get easier to deal with when you learn the tools and skills to deal with it correctly. The more you learn about yourself and what triggers you, the easier it gets. It is a work in progress, and that work can be mentally exhausting.
It’s hard not to let one moment in time define your life.
But with the right people helping you with every step you take, you learn to not let those things define you or your future.