Recovery will be a lifelong process. It does not just go away; sobriety and inner strength are things that you cannot lose sight of.
Recovery is hard, because you have to think of how long you used and numbed everything that you did not want to feel. Now you have to feel everything and look back at those years with a clear mind seeing how bad your situation was.
I write this having no idea how or why I am alive to be telling people this!
When you are lost and trapped in this tunnel, you have no clue how to get out, and you really don't care so much about yourself or how important you are. I can say that I have been clean and sober for over a year, and it is possible that I survived because I was that girl that did not want to live like that and was looking for that way out.
Now I look back at the old me while being in this program and I'm in awe of how far I've come. I care a lot about my recovery, but I know that it takes a lot of work and it is not always easy. To me, it is all about putting up a fight and being willing to change your life for the better. Life is like a rollercoaster; you will have your highs and lows.
Even when you fall, it's about how you pick yourself back up.
Life in recovery does not just happen overnight; it might take a year or longer. You need medical insurance, a doctor, a counselor, and you will probably have some medications that you will have to take. Getting back into normal life can be scary. It was for me, but I did it. Now I ride my Ferrari, so to speak, everyday to work.
- A Survivor at Amirah